Every time I try and write this one I always stop myself and thinking this is to much, this is all over the place, nobody is going to want to read this jumbled mess and I have decided today that maybe it doesn’t matter. My writing is not very structured and I know that I think I just need to accept it and continue moving forward because being structured isn’t me so if people don’t like it then they probably aren’t to fond of me to begin with but that’s not what this piece is about. I am going to be starting up at App State next week and beginning a new journey, the next step in becoming a better photographer and growing as a person. So to prep myself instead of stressing over packing and thinking about everything I need to bring I am working on myself. I am working on inspiring myself and maybe not coming up with ideas of what I want to do necessarily but to really just engulf myself in reading, drawing, or just being creative. I want to be inspired by the things around me and the internet is an amazing place for it. I have recently joined tumblr and have just been searching through images whether that be commercial or fashion or nature or just people tooling around with a camera whatever it may be I am taking a peak. I am really trying to feel inspired and feel confident in what I want to do. I am listening to new music I am reading photo prompts, I am looking at the world from a perspective that is my own and that is a creative outlet of going out and taking photos. I feel like my main purpose in life is to share my perspective in a way that is different from everybody else! It is one thing to say yeah I have an eye for photography and another to actually to get your gear together (physically and metaphorically speaking) and go out and shoot some pictures. I am still working towards that and seeing the world for what it is. I have come to the conclusion as a creative that sometimes the most beautiful things aren’t beautiful at all. I think realizing is a big step as a photographer because sometimes you can look at something and think “I don’t like that” but when you really stop to think “why doesn’t this appeal to me” is it necessarily because it’s bad or is it because it isn’t pleasing to the eye?” so coming out of this kind of soul searching journey my goal for myself and my goal for other creatives and just people in general is take the path less traveled and find beauty in things where there is no beauty to be found.